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girl talk Sooo...let's recap my Fall Break so far: Friday night- Plano vs. West game. *sigh* they just had to rain on my already sucky week huh? I really wanted to perform (never thought I'd say that...) but yeah~I guess it's kinda good that they cancelled...I'm thinking that waving 5-6ft. metal poles in the air with lightning within a mile wouldn't have been very good. Anyways...after the game we went to like...5 different locations~fun night I suppose. Saturday- Went to IHOP as a bon voyage for Anu's France trip, then went home and slept like...all afternoon...seriously. Then woke up and went shopping with John!! Ahhh! That totally made my week...John looks so hot now haha...go check him out! Sunday (today)- woke up and Matt came over to work on our APUSH project (oh, and thanks to Chris our research didn't take too long). Went out with Kathryn for awhile (they don't sell Twister at the 99 cent store!!) and then we went to make dinner reservations for homecoming. We also ended up going to the Angelika to check out what movies were playing and ended up picking up job applications, so I think I might apply sometime soon...maybe? Yay! and then Maggianos for the F-meister's birthday. I love getting all dressed up and going out to dinner. haha when Kathryn and I were at the shops at Legacy I was wearing my black strapless dress with my black sleek suit jacket and I looked so sophisticated~I loved it! The manager at the Angelika didn't think we were still in high school...how awesome is that? Anyways...Maggianos was AMAZING...it was the first time I had ever eaten there and...wow. Now for the deep stuff kinda. Yeah, so my favorite part of the night was actually when Kristen, Frances, and I were just sitting in Frances' room talking about any and everything that came to mind. Lemme see if I can remember 1/2 the stuff we talked about... 1)The Rapture. lol I honestly don't know how we got on the subject of the end of the world~according to Katie, the world is going to end in 2012. But it was kinda nice...like, it made me think of whether or not I'm actually scared for the world to end, or for me to die. In a way I'm scared to death, while at the same time, the thought of being in a place were there is no pain is...well...heaven. And then we launched into this whole religious/philisophical conversation about...life. lol. 2)High school/transitioning to senior high. I guess the whole rest of the conversation can be lumped into this category. It made me realize how much more casual all of my relationships are this year compared to any other time in my life....my friendships seem more casual, my relationships with guys have been more casual...etc. To some extent I like this sense of being able to do whatever, yet I also feel like I'm lacking structure. I don't know whether I want something serious right now, or if this route of casualness is right for me at the moment. I guess I'm just kinda playing it by ear...my indecisiveness has struck me once again. 3)Life outside of high school/working. We also started talking about how hard it is to get into college, and how our parents obsess about us "doing well in school so we can go to a good college and get a job." And I think, especially in Plano, people are so competitive and freak out so much about "succeeding" that people forget to actually have lives in high school. Like...I don't understand those people who work work work and don't really get to live life. There is no purpose of living if you're going to spend it being miserable and working your ass off the entire time. I don't understand those parents who shut their kids off and make them study like crazy and not have fun in high school...or shelter their kids during high school. These are the times that we need to learn about what there is out there...otherwise we're gonna be clueless when college rolls around. I'm not saying a parent has to be completely lax or anything, just...more understanding at times would be nice. 4)Friendships and changes. Yeah...I think we've all experienced a few of these. I'm not gonna go into any detail, because I don't want anyone to think I'm writing to them specifically...but we basically talked about how it's sad when you become so close to someone, and you think you could never live without this person, and then take a look at the relationship now, and see that the two of you barely even recognize each other's presence when walking into the same room. There's something completely and fundamentaly wrong in situations like that...I guess I can't really complain about it, because sometimes you just can't help what hapens with a relationship, but I guess to go from loving someone enough to have one of the strongest bonds anyone can have, to...this...just doesn't make sense to me. Maybe it's not supposed to, maybe it's better left unsaid, unexplained...maybe one day I can look back on it and understand why things happen the way they happened. 5) How much things have changed, yet how much they remain the same. Yeah, I know that statement doesn't seem to make too much sense, yet...it makes perfect sense if you apply it correctly. I guess tonight is a perfect example of this. The 3 of us have had things in our lives that have changed drastically since we've last gotten together to really talk...yet we're still...us. And I guess that can be applied to the thing about the above relationships also...no matter how much things can change between people...even to the point where no relationship exists at all...I think there will always be a certain connection there...even if it's just a memory. I still believe it's there. Anyways...if you actually read everything I decided to babble about tonight, you deserve a cookie or something. lol. I feel inspired...maybe you do too now. haha...twas a good night. State fair tomorrow? Missing everyone that's outta town...I'm sure yall are having fun wherever you are at this exact moment. ~Love, Jen |