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insomniac Of course, since it's summer, I get myself into some weird sleeping funk and have really weird sleeping patterns, and when I can't sleep I always find myself here. online. writing. This summer's a lot different than last though...very different...in a good way though. I'm not dealing with so much emotional turmoil that I went through last summer. It feels really weird. It's so surreal that when I look back on memories of last summer, a whole year of my life has gone by. I can't believe it. I can't believe how much has changed. It's kinda fun to think that the solitary decision of which school I'm going to next year could change the entire course of my life. So hopefully Plano was the right choice...ahem lol. I'm as happy as I've been in the longest time...yet with everything going on, I feel confused. Not at loss like most would say, because if I were to be precise about how I feel...I'm not sure I would call it that... so maybe it's the thought that things aren't ever going to be the same...that we're all leaving something we've become akin to. It's weird-to think that some people I've known for so long, I might never see again. And is it really out of place for me to say I'll miss you? I guess what I've come to understand is that even though things are constantly changing around us, some things will never change. And comfortably speaking, THAT is beautiful. Man, this late night insomnia really doesn't do much for my thought process. Everything's so pretty at night though. I took a walk to the park tonight, and although I was subconsciously worrying about being mugged (where's my pepper spray, huh?), I couldn't get over how calm and dreamy everything was. *smile* romantic! DAMNIT. Still can't sleep. So I'll make you guys go listen to some music. Phantom Planet "One Ray of Sunlight" The Cure "Love Song" Peggy Lee "You Give Me Fever" Des'ree "Kissing You" (Romeo and Juliet Soundtrack) Radiohead "Thinking About You" Goo Goo Dolls "Here Is Gone" Fiona Apple "Criminal" *yawn* can't get enough I'm out. "If I get one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand Maybe we can be happy again" I love you:) ~Jen |