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damn you wednesday Ya know...it's really sad when you call someone at 2:30 a.m. on a school night knowing that just like you, they're still awake. *groan* today oficially sucks. Oh...and Dr. Delaney's coming today-whoopie (I think that's supposed to be sarcasm)...ah yes, brings back memories from Robinson. Dang I miss those days...didn't have to stay up this late ever. grrrr. Anyways...enough complaining about school. I've been writing in an actually journal the past couple of days, so there's kind of a lack of inspiration. Sometimes I just feel like I need to write in here even when I don't have anything of any importance to say. It's important to me. I was thinking about that tonight after reading a couple other people's diaries...why do we write in these things anyways? Hoping that someone will actually read it and understand? I mean, I've always wondered why I get that sense of relief after writing in here...it's in no way giving any of my emotions poetic justice (I'm pretty bad with words at times), and I don't think anyone could ever really UNDERSTAND. I remember watching Waking Life and something like that came up. People came up with sounds to describe things like tiger and water, and then people also came up with words to describe emotion...things that are abstract or intangible. Like...frustration, or love. I say the word love and you think back to memories or love or lack of it and say you understand, but how do I know you actually understand? stuff like that...yeahhh, that movie was pretty "trippy" and kinda hard to get through actually, but something to broaden my horizons. *sigh* Ahhh ok...right now is soooo not the time to be "thinking" about things. Acknowledging my never-ending confusion will screw me over right now, so I think I'll just peacfully move on until I can get some room to BREATHE. Maybe I can get some sleep tonight...if you're up reading this, you should as well lol. A few quotes I found during my "break"(it's been a while): "Opacity gives way. Transparency is the mystery." "Who breaks the thread, the one who pulls, or the one who holds on?" Alrighty ...I think I'm gonna screw studying for an hour or two and take a nap (and probably not wake up...heh,oh well, I'm tired) Gnight! (or morning? oh my...) ~Sleepy Jen "Love Song" ~The Cure (there's also a version redone by 311, but let's go with the original) very relaxing...makes me feel like I'm on a beach at sunset or something *smile* ok...I'm going to bed nowwwwww. |