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Ok so I'm stubborn.... In 6 minutes it will technically be Friday. I've been having trouble sleeping (if that's ever uncommon for me). I'm not sure if lack of sleep, overwork/fatigue, or just the sheer fact of being me does it, but I feel...(I don't even know how to finish that...I just FEEL). Maybe I've to some extent turned that part of me off the past couple days, and now it's come to hit me smack in the face. It's doing a pretty good job of it I must say. It's so hard to describe how I feel right now without going into long explanations, and maybe that's why I've been ignoring it lately. I don't WANT to explain things right now, and even though this goes against my normal behavior, it's just seemed so much easier to smoosh everything I've been feeling into the back of my head. Of course it's still there, but for the time I didn't have to think about anything. I expiremented and figured out that yes, this does work, but eventually you smoosh until there can be no more smooshing lol. My point being: bottling up emotions just doesn't work in the long run. I used to have a quote, and I don't wanna hafta go find my book but here's the jist of it-you bottle up emotions, and the only resort to all of that pent up badness is either hurting yourself or hurting others....things I do NOT want to do. So I wanna just let it all out, right? I was thinking of doing that tomorrow...shooting for movie and then, just letting everything lose. (To most people this part is going to make NO sense, so just ignore) *Thank you for showing that you care. Even if our opinions on things may differ slightly, the fact that you actually care means so much to me...even if we don't see eye to eye about this. I don't want to disappoint you and espicially have you think less of me. I can be pretty stupid/stubborn sometimes, so bear with me...but again thank you. What you said made me think. Anyways...I wanted to write about so much in here before this little chat, but a lot of it seems somewhat unimportant at the moment...I'll try and remember later... "Splash Waterfalls"~Ludacris (ok...insanely raunchy, but it's stuck in my head and won't get out) Good night! ...I guess I'd just be happy seeing you. |