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Home I'm home. *sigh* I'm still not sure whether that's a good or bad thing right now, I guess I'll just hafta go with it and see. Cruise was an experience...I'm sunburnt lol. Got to know Mitch pretty well....got to think about a lot of stuff, which sounds bad (the thinking), yet it's a whole lot different thinking about things when you're out in the middle of the ocean. It's some sense of peace...like, even if there were things to worry over, you couldn't do anything about it anyways. Disconnected in a good way. *sigh* Now it's just back to reality. I feel kinda odd coming back home and not knowing what to expect...if anything's changed much. *-* Maybe this is like a puzzle...you have to look at it from different points of view and try different things to see what works. I'm trying...trying really hard, and maybe this time I'll get it right. It hurts sometimes. I want to say something so badly...just to tell you. But I think, maybe it's like keeping a secret. Maybe I'll try to do this to keep it safe. Hmm...ok I think Angela's the only person that actually would know what the hell I'm talking about right now. My point: MAYBE sometimes silence is golden. When dealing with things like this, it goes against everything I've believe in for the past 3-4 years of my life...but maybe I just need to try something new. Sometimes I can't help but wonder. -Prove me wrong- *-* Anyways...things seem to be somewhat looking up for me (hopefully). I'm gonna concentrate in school, stay on par with my friends, dig into the things I enjoy doing, and try not to worry so much...or let things get to me (my goal of all time). And those things that tend to get me down...to just deal...and deal silently? (I think that's the actual point I've been trying to make this whole time lol) Ha. wow I'm really bad at this. Anyways...I hope everyone's spring break has been well spent. I've missed you guys terribly. "Creep"~Radiohead Mucho amor, Jen |