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Missing I dunno why I'm writing in this thing again...it's an odd occurance for me to write twice in a day. I guess it's giving me something to do instead of homework (which I'm still avoiding). *sigh* I'm back home Back to reality where there's stress everywhere. It's weird to read my last entry and see how full of happiness I was, and then to be sitting here right now feeling something completely different. I don't like it. It's kinda like someone pinched my heart (haha...bet you've never heard that one). It's probably the one thing that I wanted more than anything not to happen, and it's already taking it's toll...I'm letting things get to me again. For some reason over the weekend I learned to just accept everything...and nothing bothered me. I had nothing to complain about...as Father Andrew said to me when I went to Reconcilliation: "You have everything you need to be happy." And I still believe in that, I guess that when you come back and get engulfed in so much stress and troubles it makes it that much harder to just...accept and appreciate everything. The thing is...I DO have everything I need to be happy. I mean, with a few set-backs here and there...but who doesn't have those? Nobody's life is perfect. Blegh...I'm getting off the point here....I hate that throughout this rebirth of happiness I still feel like I'm lacking. There it is. I shouldn't be dwelling on this right now. Too many good memories/thoughts to keep me up for a while...so I guess I'll just end up sticking this one on the back-burner. Plus...one week of school and then SPRING BREAK. Hmm... Ya know...it's the best feeling in the world to just LOVE everything... ~Jen |