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I Might Be Wrong Just got home from dance. *sigh* always a good cure for letting go of bad energy....I FEEL GOOD. lol Anyways...Alicia and I went to the Victoria Secret Semi-anual sale today! (1st day whoo hoo!) I was supposed to go with Matt, Mukesh, and Anu, but um...plans didn't fall through? lol...it's ok though. Ack...I spent $55 frickin dollars on 2 bras and 3 panties (very cute of course, but omg). Ohhh and I got a matching set...ok...I'll shuttup about that now. Ummmm. yeah. Hmmm...did some thinking today. Ugh~I feel like I'm on a tetter-totter with this thing. It's not like it's some big deal or it bothers me or something, but it's like a bug bite. It's there, and most of the time you don't really notice it, but when you do, you want to scratch it...and the more you scratch it the more you NEED to scratch it. haha...omg I sound like a retard. I think I'll shuttup about that now too. It makes no sense to me right now, and I don't think trying to put those feelings into words helps anything. I don't even know why I'm worrying about this...overall situation. I was shopping last week at Forever 21 and I had an insane urge to buy a dress. I didn't...lol, but I was on the phone with Angela yesterday talking about the next school dance (Sadie Hawkins possibly?) when that...frenzied feeling came back to me. That feeling of wanting to have a sense of security of KNOWING that I have a set date. I mean...not like it's too much of a hassle finding one (knock on wood here), but I miss having someone that I KNOW I want to be my date. All the possibilities in my head are...fuzzy. *sigh* I wish things would be more clear. But then again...it's in February...so maybe things will be different by then, and if not, then hey...no biggie. I think I'm starting to be ok with where I'm at right now, and I guess in any sort of relationship that's pretty important. Anyways...I'll end with a song. I was listening to it in the car, and hm...just look: I might be wrong/I might be wrong/I could have sworn/I saw a light coming on/I used to think/I used to think/There is no future left at all/I used to think/Open up, begin again/Let’s go down the waterfall/Think about the good times/And never look back/Never look back/What would I do?/What would I do?/If I did not have you?/Open up, let me in/Let’s go down the waterfall/Have ourselves a good time/It’s nothing at all/Nothing at all/Nothing at all Thank you Anu for that CD btw...anyways...off to "rest up" for school tomorrow (yikes). Good night everyone. Much love, Jen haha...You think you know huh? |