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My rose-tinted bottle *sigh* I dunno what the hell I'm doing right now...something's just pulling at me to write in here. Nothing in specific...I just have this incredible urge to write. Everything's spinning in my head. I wish more than anything that I could just stop..and pick something out and try to figure out this whole mess....but it's like I can't. So much...STUFF. I feel like I'm not living up to what I should be right now. I want to be BRILLIANT. *sigh* I sound so stupid... I sometimes wonder why I write in here anyways...somewhere out there someone's gonna ridicule me. I know...I shouldn't care. But I do. There are a lot of things that I shouldn't care about...yet I do. Oh I do I do. Wouldn't the world be nice if we could look past people's faults and screw-ups and focus on their beautiful aspects? And at least try and understand? I wonder if just a little more understanding would solve all conflicts. I look around me, and at my own life and I see this. Not like it's some NEW revalation or anything...but I've been thinking a lot about it. I'll go ahead and admit...we all do it...ya know...get so wrapped up into OUR emotions and how WE hurt or how WE are angry or whatever that we don't even consider what the other person may be going through. *sigh* I honestly don't know where I'm leading with all of this... I wish you could lock me up in my rose-tinted bottle and just let me live. But of course...the world is not perfect. We can't read other people's minds. Things get miscommunicated. People screw up. Life: this is it. I think Linda said this: we're all growing, learning, maturing. It's very true...what happens NOW in our lives will forever shape who we are. People, places, events...both good and bad...everything has an impact. I wish I had some sort of a point to all of this...and somewhere deep inside me I do. It's there...I just can't find it today. I wanted to write, and I did. No point I guess...maybe I was hoping that people would read this, take a step back, and look at the big picture (how cliche). This entry wasn't directed at anyone specific (if you're sitting at home wondering lol) because I know this could be said for many right now. Wishing everyone the happiest of holidays, Jen "Understanding is a two-way street." ~Eleanor Roosevelt "The improvement of understanding is for two ends: first, our own increase of knowledge; secondly, to enable us to deliver that knowledge to others." ~John Locke |